Session 39 — April 2018

Frederic asks whether lottery winners anticipate the numbers or somehow cause them to be drawn.

The Wonders answer neither: the numbers are chosen by the person, and luck, or more precisely randomness, does occur in this universe.

All circumstances come together to bring those numbers about; they are not controlled by the individual, though someone fairly psychic may sometimes choose with a degree of precognition, which does not work reliably, otherwise they would win all the time.

They suggest calling it randomness rather than luck as being more in line with his logical mind.

Frederic asks whether there is a difference between a feeling and an emotion.

The Wonders say his mind is usually what defines the feeling, while underneath lies an emotion.

Broken down, there is essentially only one emotion, love, with deep sorrow tied to it as a second; everything else is the mind's judgment naming these emotions as feelings such as love, anger or arousal, at which point it becomes expression rather than emoting.

They note that fear is usually not an emotion at all but an illusion of the mind.

Asked what exploring emotions means, they tell Frederic he thinks his way through logically and talks himself out of feelings that make him uncomfortable rather than delving into their root cause.

Their method is not to think but to let the feeling come up and then express it in whatever way describes it, even without proper words, for instance saying "I feel disconnected today"; others understand such expression, and it leads back to recognizing a disconnection from one's own love.

They give the example of a depressive state experienced only as tiredness and aches: expressing it non-logically connects one to the realization that it comes from not choosing lovingly for oneself, and from there to choosing change.

Otherwise one keeps acting without exploring, and the unacknowledged feelings return more strongly to be recognized, because a part of oneself is being denied for lack of love toward it.

Frederic says one of his frequent feelings is indifference to most of the world, and that he has felt fine with it and done nothing about it.

The Wonders ask why indifference exists; he answers that it lets him separate himself, and they agree that he logically separates one part of himself from another and calls it indifference.

What he is missing is the emotion of love or sorrow underneath, and they set him the question of what part of love or sorrow is causing his mind to define him as indifferent so as not to feel that emotion.

They tell him this is the direction his journey is moving toward and ask him to look into whether there is unacknowledged love or sorrow beneath his indifference.